Conversion Factor.

Well, this will either make things interesting, or nothing at all will change, but here it goes.

The past few months, as some people know, I have been debating/struggling/etc with my own personal faith. Not in terms of God, that was always solid, but rather whether I felt I should return to the Roman Catholic Church, seek elsewhere, or continue on my present course. With this battle came a few other personal battles over the political stances I hold and whether any, some, or all fit the views of any one church and whether I felt I could ever in good conscience join or rejoin a church as a functioning member.

But before I made a decision, I did my research. I looked at various churches, read through my Bible, prayed, etc. (This is probably surprising for some of you, but I tend to keep this sort of stuff in a private sector). I've arrived at my decision (I hope). But this wasn't the only epiphany I feel I had.

After four years of being pro-choice, I'm jumping back across the fence. But before you cheer or groan, read on. Neither side is really going to be satisfied by how I feel, though its likely pro-choicers will be more accepting. I am pro-life, but solely as a personal philosophical and moral sandpoint. I think the laws of this country should continue to favor the mother discussing options with her doctor until such time that abortion is either eradicated (aside from the health of the mother, rape, and incest cases) or technology develops that makes the death of the fetus unnecessary. Now its unlikely either of these will come around any time soon, and in the case of the former option 'never' is more likely. Since that is the case I personally will not be pushing for the overturning of Roe v Wade, nor will I be pushing for severe restrictions on abortion, at least not until this country is in a place where abortion has become outdated or incredibly uncommon for "convenience" reasons. I will continue my support for comprehensive sex education with an emphasis on abstaining, which I have held ever since introduced to the issue.

It's likely neither side will think there is any true significance to my stance. Pro-choicers will feel they have no more or less competition, and pro-lifers will likely see no significance in this as I am not personally aiding in the pro-life cause either through(likely) my vote, my thoughts/opinion, or through action. By that alone I know some will condemn me or laugh to think I now consider myself pro-life, but so be it. It's possible few people, or none (barring myself) will understand the true significance of this, but that's just how the world works.

Now, with all that being said, I am going to attempt to reunite myself with the Roman Catholic Church. I am hoping to join a program that will lead to my confirmation some week or two after Easter, it's dependent upon whether or not space is still available and whether or not there is any cost (since I will now be paying rent, bills, etc for an apartment).

For those who knew about a portion of this I thank you for your help and support. For those who think this is all just a bunch of BS or something of that nature, please just keep your commentary to yourself. It won't help anyone and likely will just get me ticked off :).